Positive Attitude

After being negative for a while and not doing much about some problems personally and at work, I'm slowly making a turn-around. I may not be a total genius or meeting all my deadlines that get thrown my way, but lately things are starting to get better.

The first thing I had to change about myself was my attitude. I was lazy and didn't really care about how my work reflected about me or what I contributed to my relationship in terms of maturity. I had to let things get bad before I had to face myself and rethink how my actions affect others. If a challenge was too hard, I would simply quit and let someone else handle it. I learned the hard way that life doesn't work out that way. It leaves behind heavy resentment from others and a loss of respect.

I know my life isn't perfect and I don't want it to be either or that would be boring, but staying on a path and forging a destiny through hard work, I hope will pay off in the end. The problem with my previous attitude was that I demanded respect and acceptance for doing nothing and not being a team player. I felt I did my basic responsibilities and didn't need to do anything more or acquire new knowledge to do my job.

The thing about design and technology is the field is constantly revolving. If one doesn't keep up with the change, one gets left behind. I may never get ahead of the trend in my field, but I do believe the positive attitude will pay off long term and will get farther ahead than being stuck at the bottom.

Another strange result I've found from an increase in productivity, I feel like I'm juggling too many projects and I need to learn to slow down and prioritize what's critical in research and development and how to make the best out of my time. Discovering what will have the best return on investment (my time) that will pay off in the end and bless others besides myself.

I've thought about charity and community work. I know I've become a lot busier but it would be nice if I could schedule the time to make a difference in someone's life besides just hearing another story about how someone volunteered to help a cancer society. We'll see. I think that one needs more time.

Family is another one. I'd like to find some time to be more involved in their lives and form a better relationship with my parents who are aging semi-post retirement. My nieces and nephews who are growing up too fast already. If it's as simple as taking them out for ice cream that would be great. I know I would be happier and so would they.

Keeping my chin up and forging ahead!