Life is Short, Propel Forward

Call it a crisis, deer in the headlights moment, titanic sinking, any metaphor analogy will do for my life right now. I've found I've delaying success by hindering myself with excuses. I've realized after a few lost years of post-college life. I've gotten married and have been working in a stable job for nearly four years. The problem? I didn't look 3-5-10 years down the road. I had no plan. Well... actually a had a vague plan that I would get married, settle down and have kids in a few years. It was all a good problem until I realized kids are expensive. I'm nearly broke traveling often for the in-laws and once-a-year-vacations and struggle to pay my bills. Besides travel the only other place I realized all my money goes to is food. I guess the point in this short blog entry is that life is short and if one gets caught in the day to day routine without a battle plan of the future than one could be readying oneself for disaster. I thought I could skate by with minual effort. I could put in my 40 hour work week and sit on the couch enjoying entertainment in my downtime. The problem with my field is technology is ever changing. To stay with the times, I have to continue educating myself. I've been lazy since college and haven't want to do any of that. Now it's nearly the end of 2010 and I've been promising my wife I'd get a masters or some certificate for years and she's been talking of leaving me. It sucks and I hate getting told that I'm on my last shot, so I whipped my life into shape this week and got (nearly) everything done that I've been eluding to for years. I submitted my application to an excellent online college on the eastern seaboard and took care of other responsibilities. 2010 has been an extremely tough year. I hope the harder I work from this day forward will prevent me from falling so long again. The stress and pressure of it isn't worth it and the sleepless nights are hard to get through. Just got to work harder and smarter. I pray I can propel forward, I don't want to fail.